Thursday, June 30, 2011

So I moved.

It wasn't that I didn't like Nevada, with its 3 seasons. - July, August and Cold - or the wonderful history that is preserved there for all to see. It was the one thing I couldn't do without, Work.
So, I moved.
I came to Washington State with a heart full of hope - again - and the thought that life might be different.
I was here 3 days and got a job. I thought the job would be a good one. I started out working part time and for now that was fine, but then he started cutting me back even further. Now I am relying again on my little unemployment check for my survival. Thank goodness for the Govt handout.
He calls me at night to tell me what time to be to work in the morning and I cannot work unless he is there. They are Mormons and so they go to Temple every Tuesday so no work Tuesday, some weekends there is an auction but most weekends there isnt. So now here i sit unable to quit because i would lose my unemployment but not getting any hours either. UGH!!
Then there is a matter of my home. Ok, so this isnt a home, it's a closet. My washer and dryer are in my bedroom. Does that tell you anything..

I am meeting some very nice people though and they are all really nice, well except for the single men, (whole other blog) but the rest or good. The drawback is that this is a very Christian area and if you know me, then you know there is a conflict there.

So today, its all good. I have a few bumps to over come, but I am sure that the Gods will smile on me somehow and bring an opportunity into my life.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Wrote this last year but it still applies 09/11/08

Sept 09, 2007 - Thoughts from a rambling mind

I am not an editorialist, nor am I a pundit, or even, for that matter, a writer.
However, what I am is American, and as such, I still remember that day 6 years ago when I, like 99% of Americans, sat glued to my television and became enraged over what unfolded.
I watched while my America was attacked in an unspeakable and cowardly manner.
I watched, as the world watched, as we were attacked by a group of people with an axe to grind. Extremists, who, for whatever reason, decided to commit murder.
On 9/11/2001 Americans flew flags and became the single most patriotic country the world has ever seen. By 9/12/2001 , almost every home in America was showing how patriotic we were. We were a country United. There were flags on cars, on trees, in windows, on doors, even up flag poles. The biggest flags ever made, were flown on that day and subsequent days.
Men and women became patriotic and enlisted in the services in the highest enlistment numbers the country as seen since WWII. Professionals gave up careers, football players gave up lucrative contracts, ordinary men and women went to their recruiting offices and said “Where do I sign?” This became the mantra for thousands.
Workers spent hours upon hours cleaning up the debris from the fallen towers, the fields in Pennsylvania and The Pentagon. Most of them are now very ill for their efforts, but ask any one of them if they would do it again…
In fact ask any one of the service people if they would enlist again. I can assure you that 99% of both groups would. They wouldn’t change a thing.
Ask the families of those that died after enlisting if they would talk their son or daughter out of what they believed in. 99% of those wouldn’t do anything either.
These are ALL, without exception, our heroes.
My problem now is that America and her citizens have once again become complacent.
I am no different. My days turn into nights the same way they always have. Life goes on.
I watch the news and now when the lead story says, “And now from Iraq ” I turn the channel. Why? Because I am sick of the “if it bleeds, it leads” mentality of the news organizations.
If, according to them, we are to believe everything that comes out of Iraq is death, mayhem and destruction, then the news never changes. The views never change. We never see the humanitarian effort. So I quit watching. I became complacent, or maybe this is my form of rebellion against the American news media. I change the channel.
A couple of years ago, there was a campaign to fly the flag on 9/11. It was largely an e-mail campaign so in reality it probably didn’t reach the masses. It was never publicized in the media so mainstream Americans didn’t see it.
However, one has to wonder if the news outlets did tell us about it, would we once again show our remembrances by flying a flag. Would we once again become one United States of America
The bottom line in all of this is that we, collectively, have pushed to the back of our minds, why the world is the way it is today. It’s not about a war, although if you listened to the commentaries, you would think we went in to Iraq with no provocation what-so-ever. You never hear that this is an action vs reaction situation. This is what it is - a consequence.
Of course, you didn’t forget, and I like all of you, can and will always be able to recollect from that day, where, when and what I was doing, whatever it was I was doing, when I first heard the news. However, I think it is a huge disservice to the memory of those who died on that day, and an even bigger disservice to not honor those who have died fighting for our rights to never have it happen again.
Do you even remember that day?
Do you remember the emotions you felt while watching on television, the towers fall, the field on fire, the hole in the Pentagon??
Do you really remember that emotion??
Where is it now??
Why aren’t you as patriotic today as you were that day and the days that followed???
Where is your flag??
Where are your tears?
Where is your anger?
How will you feel when it happens again? (Notice I said “when” and not “If”.)
Will you once again fly your flags and make your speeches.
Will you still say, “We don’t need troops in harms way”.
Or will you say, “Mr. President, you didn’t do enough”
I don’t ask you to say you are for or against the war. I just want you to remember the emotions you felt on September 11, 2001 .
Then ask yourself if you want it to happen again

Monday, August 25, 2008

AnAmerican debacle we call NBC

Well the Olympics are over and for what it's worth, to anyone reading this, I thought they sucked. At least the coverage provided by NBC sucked.. Instead of hi lighting a lot of sports, they chose to broadcast only those that they thought USA could win medals in. I never in my life want to see another volleyball game - either beach or court.
I am totally burned out on water sports and we wont even go to the track. I did enjoy the rowing, but again, way too much of it.
I scrolled through all the channels (CNBC, MSNBC, USA) that were showing the different sports only to have to watch either soccer (football), boxing, and softball.

And we wont even go into the final round of boxing and what I think happened to the poor kid from Mongolia, or the ages of the female gymnasts. China, you cheated and badly I might add. Stop at nothing to win.

What a thorough disappointment this has been. I love to watch the magnificence that is trampoline ( if you've never watched it is amazing). I never got to see any of the shooting, even though I hate guns. They showed very little of the BMX, most of the rowing, but none of the interior track sports, like javelin, shot put etc.
They showed only anywhere that America should win medals.
Well Hello!!! We aren't all American born here.. And we want to see all of the Olympics. Even if it is the final rounds only.. no matter who is slated to win.
This is about a world coming together under the guise of sports to unite.
Instead what I got crammed down my throat was the desire to win at all costs. I was shown that no matter who or what you are in this world, you have to have money to make it.
Nothing was hardly ever mentioned of the struggles of some of the athletes just to be there. Some of those that were mentioned in the opening ceremonies should have been followed. Just to let the world know that you don't have to have money to make a difference.
Take the Iron Man Triathlon in Hawaii for instance.( coverage provided by ABC) They follow some of those people long into the night, long after the bell has sounded for the winners. They show the compassion of the sport. They show the determination of the athletes. They tell you the struggles and the humanity of it all.
The Olympics, they showed the winners.. They didn't show what it takes to get there. (runners from Somalia, Shooters from India)
This, for me, was a bitter disappointment.
I hope someone from NBC reads this and understands that not everyone in this country wants to see arrogance at its worst..
The time spent on commercials in the debacle that was the opening ceremonies was horrific. I got 3 minutes of ceremony and 5 minutes of commercials.. Geezus, what were you thinking. Then you have the nerve to ask me if I want to buy a DVD of them. Does it have all the commercials in it??
And what's with the National Anthem? Were the athletes told not to sing it? Any other sporting event the athletes have always sung along with the music. Only one did this time..(Kobe Bryant) Not one other athlete sang along with the music, in all the gold medal ceremonies we saw..No Pride shown there either..
I surely hope someone else gets the rights to coverage for the Winter Olympics or I wont be watching..
No, NBC, you screwed this one up royally for me.
Whats bad is that I have watched the games since I was 6 or 7 and never missed one, and never have I walked away feeling like I was shorted on the experience.. Thanks NBC, for nothing..

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Its just the beginning

So..... here I sit with thoughts running through my mind and nowhere to put them. I used to blog on 360 but somehow I abandoned that and didn't blog for a long time. Somehow I had made my 360 way too personal and got away from what I had wanted to accomplish when I first started. So, this will be a mixture of things I see in the physical sense and other things that I see in the emotional sense. Those things that matter to me, those things that I know others will see and say hmmmm!!. A different point of view sometimes and others a similarity in perspective.
My last blog was during a very depressing time in my life, but it was also a very reflective time. A time when I had to find out who I was. Atfter 50 years of trying, I think I am starting to come into my own. To finally face my demons and put some of them to rest.
Oh yes, I am opinionated and have no problems with a "F" bomb or two passing through my fingertips. There are times when I will use it as a statement and other times, well, just because I can. So, if that offends you, so sorry! This isn't the Wall Street Journal after all.
I look forward to writing again, and this time , with this fresh start, I can say what I believe in with conviction. These will truly be my thoughts. If you find sometimes that there is a conflict in what I say, well so be it. I don't always have the right opinion, but value it, for it is mine..